Friends

Disclaimer: I am not asking for a pity party, just needing to talk.

I have trouble making friends. I always have. I guess I need to clarify. I can meet people, make nice, and have friends. But as for good friends, who call me, and want to hang out. I'm not so good at it. I see my friends maybe once every couple months. I talk to them on the phone, about once a month, and that's usually if I call them.

It's not that people don't like me. I'm just not the person they think to call when they want to hang out or talk. I know it is mostly my own problems that prevent those close lasting relationships. First, I am a little annoying. I know this. I have always been a little on the loud, hyper and annoying side :) Second, I don't like to go out all the time to do things. I am perfectly content to sit at home, watching movies and hanging out. And thirdly, I'm not all that funny, or entertaining. I want other people to entertain me ;).

I did make some good friends in college, but we all live in different places. We don't keep in touch like we should. I also have friends from childhood, my cousins. I don't see them like I want to either.

My best friend is my husband, and he has been there for me since we were in high school. He has always been there for whatever I need or ask. He spoils me with foot rubs (toes hehe), and tickles my back. He washes dishes and vacuums because he knows I hate to. He works so hard to help provide for our family. I love my John :)